Alternate Ending

           I start breathing fast, I feel as I suddenly get tired and the pain thunders inside my chest. I look down, I see blood just pouring out of me. I nearly faint from the sight of all of it. I look up over down another hall that goes to the front door, to my suprise there is a friend of mine standing there in horror.

          I turn pale from the blood loss and blush in embarressment, "You see nothing... I'm fine, go please! Co-"

          My friend ignores what I said and runs over to me quickly, "Oh my gosh! Stephanie! What did you do?!?! Why did you do it?!?! Come on lets go now!" Before I could say anything my friend grabs me and carries me into the kitchen and grabs the home phone. He dials up 911, I could see how scared and worried he was by his expression and the way he was shaking.

         I tried to talk to tell him I was ok and wanted to die but I was too tired to do that. He noticed me not saying anything when I normally would be talking a lot, it made him more scared. I looked at him, my eyes were closing slowly but I would open them quickly when they closed.

         "No! Stephanie no! Don't close your eyes at all! Stop that!" He shook me while he held me so I could stay awake. He started talking to a doctor on the phone, I couldn't understand much because I felt my hearing going away for some reason.

          I looked up at the ceiling and then back at my friend, he was pale and shaking me to make me stay awake. I couldn't hear what he was saying, I suddenly didn't feel anymore pain. The pain just went away and I smiled a bit that it was gone.

          When I smiled, what ever my friend had said before I did made him freak out and run carrying me to the front door. I was confused but I stayed quiet, I felt to weak to speak. When we got to the door he put me down to open it. I sat down on the floor and waited for him to open the door and pick me up again or for my death to come. He was shaking badly by the looks of it, he had trouble opening the door, but when he did he picked me up quickly.

        I freaked out myself a bit, I looked at him. My vision was blurring the whole time but I focused and saw he was crying a lot. I felt weird when I saw him cry, I never seen him cry and having him cry over me made me sad. I looked at my chest which was covered in my blood and still bleeding.

         I took one of my hand and felt where I had cut, I shivered when I felt my warm blood and the my hand enter the deep cut I made. I pulled my hand back, I felt like throwing up now but I was even to weak for that.

         I suddenly could hear again and I heard my friend yelling at me to stay awake and asking me questions, "Stephanie! Don't sleep! Don't sleep dammit! Why did you do this?!?! You know if you did this you would make everyone sad?!?! Ok stay awake, but what ever happened to the promise you made me?!?! You said you'd never do th-" I put my hand on his mouth to make him be quiet, I had heard enough.

         He looked at me and moved my hand away, "Stephanie, what happened to your promise...?" He kept looking at me as he ran to the hospital nearby while he carried me.

         I look up at him then down at the ground. I think quickly then look back up at him and yell, "Well! That promise is broken! I'm sorry but... I just don't want to life anymore!"

         He looks at me with complete shock, "What!?! But!?! Stephanie?!?! Why?!?!"

         I start moving around to get out of his grip as I keep yelling, "It's because I got nothing anymore! NOTHING! Now let me go!!!!!" I keep moving and he tries to hold on to me, but I elbow him in the arm and get free and fall on the ground.

         "Stephanie!!!!" He tries to pick me up again but I don't let him by moving away.

         "Stop it! I want to die!!" I yell at him while still moving away.
 
         "I know but why do you think you have nothing?! Also I know you want to die but I don't want you to die!!! Now come here!! Please!" He keeps trying to grab me.
     
         "I think I have nothing because I do have nothing!! I don't care if you don't want me to die though and never!!!"

         "But! Stephanie you know I care about you! Now seriously let me save you!!!" He grabs me finally

         "Nooooo!!! Stop it please!!! Let me go!!" I try to get free again but I lost a lot of strength from trying to get away the first time so he picks me up again. I look at him mad but start crying, "Why!?! WHY!?!?! Why won't you let me die!?!?!"

         He looks at me seriously, "Stephanie I won't let you because I care about you! You got to realize that Stephanie!"

         I get more mad and keeps crying, "I know you do but I don't care right now!!! I want to die!!" I use all the strength I have left to throw myself out of his arms and onto the road.

         He freaks out and runs after me, he's crying now because on what I said crushed him. "Stephanie no!! You can't die!!! And why don't you care?!?!"

         I look at him and growl slightly, "I can die and I don't care because!!!! Because right now the world is absolutly nothing!! And! AND!! I don't care about anything but my death so!!! There!"

         He looks at me and cries more then shakes his head, "No, no, no, no! I don't care anymore about you not caring so come here!! We don't have enough time if you keep trying to get away from me!!!!" He goes over to me and picks me up, I can't do anything because I'm too weak.

         I'm angry but I let him carry me away. Suddenly though I can't breathe, I freak out and try to breathe and I start feeling a terrible pain as well. I keep trying to get my breath back but I can't, I grab my friends shoulder and shake him lightly. He looks at me just before I black out... and finally die.

       

(Perspectives change here! It's my friends point of view now!)          

         
         I look at her while running, "What Stephanie?!? If you going to te-" I look at her more carefully and realize something terrible happened. I stop running and shake her, she doesn't do anything. I turn pale afriad of the worst, "Stephanie!!!! No!"

         I start running again, I know most likely she's gone but I don't want to except it. I keep running as I start crying, I'm in absolute terror.

         

         I run into the hospital still carrying Stephanie, I know she's dead now but I still don't care. I rush over to a doctor who's nearby, "My friend, she tried to kill herself an-"

         "Shhhh, sir let me see her then" I hand over Stephanie to the doctor who takes one quick look at her and shakes his head. "I'm sorry but she's gone sir, long gone. She been dead for about 8 minutes already, I can't do anything"

         I turn more pale then before and fall to my knees, I knew she was gone but now hearing that she was makes me realize everything. I start crying again when the doctor puts Stephanie down and puts his hand on my shoulder. I don't feel any comfort but I look at the doctor and smile a bit but my smile goes away quickly.

         I look over at Stephanie, the doctor put her on the floor and I think it was kind of rude but I don't think to much about it. I just keep looking at her now as I cry, she just lays there, motionless. I look at the floor now as I keep on crying, can't believe I failed to safe my friend.

         Then I realize that only if Stephanie didn't fight and realized killing herself was dumb she would probably be alive. I stand up and turn to the doctor, "Ok.... well I'm going to take her then I guess..." The doctor nods and I go over and pick up Stephanie, I sigh and carry her out of the hospital.



         It's the next day after she died and I had just called her parents who I thought were terribly, terribly rude! They had said they really didn't care that Stephanie was dead, I believe that they should of cared but no! I now walk outside and I go to the place they kept Stephanie's body for me.

         I walk into the building and walk over to the woman who had agreed yesterday to help me bury Stephanie later today. I told her about Stephanie's parents and she immediatly agreed that they were rude to say such a thing. After she agreed she told me she would help me a lot more now in burying Stephanie. I was really happy to hear that and then walked into the room she put Stephanie in.

         Stephanie was on a bed and dressed differently from yesterday, she was in a red dress and a black jacket with her hair was even curled. I smile a bit seeing her ok and somehow she looked like she was just sleeping but I knew she wasn't then I couldn't help but start crying again. I wish she was alive and I had saved her but sadly no. I walk over to the bed and looks closer at her, I notice her glasses are crooked so I fix them into place on her face.

         I keep looking at her while crying then turn away and walk toward the door to leave. I turn again to look at her before I walk out of the room.



         Later in the day the woman was leading me to the area in a cemetrey where we're burying Stephanie. When we got to the place there was only a couple of guys there to bury Stephanie, the woman, and I, I felt suddenly angry and sad that no one else came to see Stephanie buried. I tried not to think about that and just watched as the guys brought the casket Stephanie was in and put it down in front of me.

         They opened the top showing Stephanie's upper body, she was dressed the same as earlier. I started crying yet again and then the woman asked me if I had anything to say to Stephanie before the guys bury her. I nod and look down at Stephanie, "All I have to say is well, I'm sorry and that I wish you will remember I always care about you Stephanie.." I turn away from Stephanie because I'm crying a lot more and then I tell the woman to tell the guys it's ok to bury Stephanie now. She nods and tells the guys as I go sit down in a chair to watch and well to cry more and think.

         The guys close the casket and pick it up again and carry it over to a hole. I watch them carefully while crying as they lower the casket into the hole. I keep watching till the casket is in the hole finally, that's when I stand up and tell the woman I need to go because I can't help it anymore. She says she understands and lets me go, I walk away slowly and turn around and whisper, "Good bye Steph..."